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Oh what it is to be brave!

So, today, I faced a massive hurdle because of anxiety. I have a website I started 2 years ago for my cakes, which I intended to work on and build. I have been waiting for the renewal to come up so that I could cancel it, which was meant to happen in June, however, last week it renewed. I knew I had a certain amount of days to ring them to cancel it so that I wasn’t paying for another 2 years. As I’m working from home today I told myself that I had to get it done now or else I wouldn’t do it.


I’ve just phoned the company and from the moment I picked up the phone to ring them, until about a minute getting off the phone from them, I was shaking the whole time. Truth be told I still am a little. I’ve never really liked talking on the phone to people, but since menopause decided to join in the life journey, it’s gotten worse. Today has been the worst I’ve ever had.


But I done it! I’ve cancelled the website, I’ve stopped the payments that I’ve been paying for 2 years for something I’ve done nothing with and a weight has been lifted! Thank fuck!!! There’s a sense of relief now that we can save just that little bit more now to help the budget.


I’m trying hard this year to face the obstacles that I find hard to deal with. Anxiety has held me back before and I refuse to keep letting it anymore. Time to be brave, be confident and show my kids that even though ever fibre of me is trying to stop me, I’m going to do it anyway.





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